One Huge Lesson in Humility.

Butter, 1 tbsp.—102 kcal.

Kilocal. Quant.
Breakfast
Sep 17 '16 @ 9:42 AM

I keep get­ting through break­fast and start­ing to track and then trail­ing off.

The doc­tor says: Your cho­les­ter­ol is el­ev­ated and you are pre-diabetic. This is not a surprise. I am okay with being pre-diabetic. I don’t want to be but it seems to be a nat­ur­al con­sequence of my action. “Seems to be.” Rather, is.

I am genu­inely that if I let my stress shoot out of me by not eat­ing that I’ll start telling all kinds of truth about my­self and others. That un­muted I will go on some kind of rampage.

'' 90 2
'' 102 1
'' 320 1
'' 0 12
'' 120 1
Lunch
Apr 03 '15 @ 5:50 PM
'' 90 2
'' 102 1
'' 449 1
Dinner
Nov 10 '14 @ 9:54 PM
'' 64 4
'' 10 8
'' 150 1
'' 102 2
'' 40 1
'' 532
1/4
'' 278
3/2
Lunch
Aug 05 '14 @ 1:02 PM

I know I grabbed a hand­ful of cer­eal in here.

'' 100 1
'' 90 2
'' 102 1
'' 130 1
'' 5 2
'' 94 1
'' 110 2
'' 32 1
Dinner
Jun 23 '14 @ 8:04 PM

Had a 1/2 cup cer­eal with a ba­nana be­fore dinner. Had a beer with dinner. Had some cole slaw and to­ma­toes too.

'' 100 1
'' 110 1
'' 13 12
'' 102 1
'' 320
1/2
'' 579
1/2
'' 28 6
Breakfast
Apr 17 '14 @ 8:30 AM
'' 102
1/2
'' 54 2
'' 1,000
2/5
'' 74 2
'' 98 1
'' 50 1
Breakfast
Mar 08 '14 @ 8:37 AM
'' 90 2
'' 102 1
'' 54 1
Breakfast
Mar 06 '14 @ 9:42 AM
'' 102 1
'' 90 2
'' 297 1
'' 54 1
'' 55 1
Breakfast
Dec 05 '13 @ 11:13 AM

In­cludes therapist-provided banana.

'' 110 1
'' 102 1
'' 297 1
'' 171 1
'' 55 2
Lunch
Nov 24 '13 @ 12:29 PM

Got the kid some fish and chips. Mo and I ended up nib­bling at it.

'' 90 1
'' 102 1
'' 532
1/4
'' 300
1/2
'' 90 2
'' 100 1
Snack
Oct 26 '13 @ 8:51 PM

Avoided booze but really wanted something sweet so I had bread with but­ter and sugar and cinnamon. Not the worst solution, actually. But hardly the best one. Should have gone for the grapes or a pear RIGHT THEN.

'' 90 2
'' 102 1
'' 16 1
Dinner
Oct 25 '13 @ 6:42 PM

De­cided not to order. Just made some sausages. Then as the night went on I craved sugar really badly. I put a little on a piece of toast with cinnamon. 200 use­less calories, but it all goes to the crav­ings and the need to stop with sugar. It’s clearly the main trigger. And it sneaks in through cer­eal and suchlike.

It’s also clear that I’m drink­ing every night, just about, be­cause we have nice bour­bon in the closet and it’s cold. Nice way to wind down. But I’m also wak­ing up at 3AM every night.

'' 64 3
'' 90 2
'' 90 1
'' 102 1
'' 113 1
'' 10 2
'' 160 1
'' 16 1
Dinner
Oct 01 '13 @ 8:45 PM
'' 64 4
'' 90 2
'' 102 1
'' 59 4
'' 50 4
Non-event
Sep 09 '13 @ 10:37 PM

Just gotta get back on tracking. Did breakfast, but going to do lunch, &c. Mov­ing back­wards a little. Just want to get everything mov­ing again.

'' 90 2
'' 102 2
'' 60 2
'' 850
59/85
'' 160 1
'' 110 2
'' 900 1
'' 160 2
'' 30
4/3
Breakfast
Aug 22 '13 @ 6:25 AM

Couldn’t find a break­fast place that wasn’t mobbed so I ended up at a diner. Which is too bad be­cause if you know the right place to go you can good good gran­ola in California.

'' 46 2
'' 102 1
'' 54 2
'' 74 2
'' 98
3/2
'' 50 2
Lunch
Aug 05 '13 @ 12:30 PM

Had some bread in the bread bas­ket at a diner called Kappy’s in Niles, Chicago.

'' 90 3
'' 102 1
'' 75
2/3
'' 228 1
'' 5 3
Breakfast
Aug 05 '13 @ 7:49 AM

Jesus Christ Amer­ica how do people even sur­vive out in the boon­ies eat­ing at Perkins? Where “pancakes” is an appetizer?

'' 102 1
'' 54 2
'' 297 1
'' 74 3
'' 50 2
Breakfast
Aug 03 '13 @ 9:17 AM
'' 360 1
'' 102 1
'' 9 4
Breakfast
Jul 26 '13 @ 8:21 AM
'' 360 1
'' 102
1/3
Dinner
Jul 07 '13 @ 6:17 PM
'' 96 2
'' 64 2
'' 90 1
'' 102 2
'' 59 5
'' 64 2
'' 145 1
'' 50 2
Breakfast
Jun 20 '13 @ 8:38 AM
'' 360 1
'' 102 1
Dinner
Feb 08 '13 @ 8:32 PM
'' 90 2
'' 102 1
'' 90 2
'' 120 1
'' 30 1
Dinner
Dec 26 '12 @ 10:23 PM
'' 100 3
'' 102 2
'' 105 4
'' 28 3
Breakfast
Nov 13 '12 @ 9:38 AM
'' 102 1
'' 74 3
'' 98 1
'' 50 2
Lunch
Oct 26 '12 @ 12:38 PM
'' 90 2
'' 102 1
'' 30 2
'' 130 2
'' 18 1
Breakfast
Oct 25 '12 @ 7:35 AM
'' 135 1
'' 102 1
'' 56 1
Dinner
Oct 23 '12 @ 7:18 PM
'' 200
3/2
'' 90 2
'' 9 1
'' 102 2
'' 180 1
'' 100 1
'' 110 2
'' 90 1
'' 50 2
Dinner
Oct 20 '12 @ 8:38 PM
'' 105
1/2
'' 500
1/3
'' 102
1/2
'' 46
1/3
'' 68 8
'' 108 1
'' 30 2
Dinner
Oct 18 '12 @ 7:59 PM
'' 9 1
'' 102 1
'' 110
4/3
'' 120 1
'' 110 1
'' 226 2
'' 50
1/2
Snack
Oct 16 '12 @ 9:47 PM
'' 102 1
'' 110 2
'' 90 1
'' 50 1
Dinner
Oct 04 '12 @ 7:29 PM

I truly wanted pop­corn for din­ner and this is what I had.

'' 12 12
'' 90 2
'' 102 2
'' 73 1
'' 50 1
'' 110 2
'' 160 1
'' 50 3
Snack
Jul 08 '11 @ 10:34 AM

Got the tapeworm.

'' 102 1
'' 110 2
'' 50 1
Dinner
Apr 25 '11 @ 9:05 PM
'' 102
1/2
'' 20 4
'' 10 1
'' 12 8
'' 110 1
'' 160 2
Lunch
Apr 17 '11 @ 1:06 PM
'' 102 1
'' 100
6/5
'' 34 1
'' 110 2
'' 50 1
'' 33 4
Snack
Nov 30 '10 @ 11:53 PM
'' 100 2
'' 102 1
'' 43 1
'' 90
1/2
Dinner
Nov 11 '10 @ 7:21 PM

Both burned-feeling we put aside Thai. Dread­ing my post-allergy doctor’s visit next week, wherein he will yell at me for the fatness.

'' 102 1
'' 265 1
'' 90 1
Lunch
Nov 10 '10 @ 8:47 PM
'' 90 4
'' 102 1
'' 43
1/4
Snack
Nov 01 '10 @ 9:16 PM
'' 102 1
'' 110 2
'' 50 1
Breakfast
Oct 24 '10 @ 12:13 PM

Fun fact: At my biggest I was as fat as Henry VIII.


“King size! Henry VIII’s ar­mour re­veals he had a 52in girth - for which he paid a ter­rible price,” The Daily Mail, Feb­ru­ary 2, 2009:

By his late 40s, he meas­ured 48 inches around the middle and soon ex­pan­ded to the co­lossal meas­ure­ments of his twi­light years. Peter Armstrong, the dir­ect­or of the Royal Armouries, de­scribes him simply as ‘an ab­so­lute monster’.


I’m a little taller, likely a bit broad­er in the shoulder. More oxlike.

He even­tu­ally made it to 52 inches (54 ac­cord­ing to Wikipedia). I never quite made it to 54, but I came par­lous close. Put us in a room and they’d say: Nary a groats­worth between them. Of course this is not the nov­elty it once was. If we are to be­lieve news re­ports that show us dis­ten­ded bel­lies but no heads in side profile, a sig­ni­fic­ant seg­ment of Amer­ica is about as fat as Henry VIII right now. Corn has made us regal. Not just grand, of course, but sore, and taciturn, and likely to suf­fer bowel disorders. As bad about our appetites, as prone to di­vorce and ro­mantic self-indulgence in general, as given to sar­tori­al excess, as likely to pick and choose our re­li­gion to suit our impulses, as re­li­ant on self-interested advisors. TV has given us a world of Wolseys.

We are, at least, not quite as covered in pustules—Henry had one varicose ulcer on his shapely leg (they should put a warn­ing label on tight garters) that the doc­tors re­fused to let heal, as its sup­pur­a­tion was con­sidered healthful. To keep the wound open, in fact, they stuffed it with bits of gold.

'' 110 1
'' 102
1/2
'' 120 1
'' 80
3/2
'' 90 1
Dinner
Mar 01 '10 @ 9:01 PM
'' 158 2
'' 102
3/2
'' 90 1
'' 12 8
'' 40 4
'' 30
4/3
Dinner
Dec 19 '09 @ 9:00 PM
'' 110 1
'' 102
1/2
'' 300
1/4
'' 30 1
'' 38
1/4
'' 46
1/4
'' 160 2
Dinner
Nov 28 '09 @ 8:06 PM
'' 99
7/3
'' 102
2/3
'' 110
3/2
'' 15
7/3
'' 120
1/6
'' 10 1
'' 79 2
Dinner
Nov 23 '09 @ 9:24 PM
'' 353
1/2
'' 102
1/3
'' 102
1/2
'' 300
1/4
'' 35 2
'' 120 1
'' 38
1/4
'' 46
1/4
'' 15 1
Dinner
Nov 23 '09 @ 9:24 PM
'' 353
1/2
'' 102
1/3
'' 102
1/2
'' 300
1/4
'' 35 2
'' 120 1
'' 38
1/4
'' 46
1/4
'' 15 1
Lunch
Oct 25 '09 @ 12:19 PM
'' 102 1
'' 59 6
'' 100 2
'' 20 4
'' 50 1
Dinner
Sep 28 '09 @ 9:27 PM
'' 9 5
'' 102
1/2
'' 35 2
'' 20 3
'' 105 2
'' 28 8
Lunch
Sep 13 '09 @ 6:32 PM

I am done with lobster.

'' 102
1/3
'' 5 2
'' 460
1/4
Dinner
Sep 12 '09 @ 11:24 PM

There will be a price to pay for this tomorrow.

'' 96 8
'' 102 3
'' 130 6
'' 23 12
'' 103 5