One Huge Lesson in Humility.

Salad with a small amount of dressing, 1 oz.—50 kcal.

Kilocal. Quant.
Dinner
Aug 08 '14 @ 8:42 PM

Raw broc­coli salad with a light dressing, chicken, rice.

'' 64 2
'' 59 6
'' 205
4/5
'' 50 4
Lunch
Jun 24 '14 @ 2:04 PM

I can’t re­mem­ber what I had for lunch but I DO re­mem­ber that I went for a bike ride and didn’t stop for lunch so I think I just had something at home, like saus­ages and salad.

'' 500 1
'' 50 1
'' 160 2
Dinner
Jun 24 '14 @ 12:02 PM
'' 96 2
'' 311 1
'' 50 1
Dinner
Jun 03 '14 @ 8:00 PM

Went out for drinks with an editor.

'' 96 4
'' 180 1
'' 34 8
'' 50 4
Dinner
May 09 '14 @ 8:32 PM

Nice ginger-lentil soup with lentils. Ba­sic­ally an all-vegetable meal.

'' 180 2
'' 230
1/2
'' 50 1
'' 233 1
Dinner
Apr 28 '14 @ 8:00 PM
'' 13 4
'' 64 3
'' 59 6
'' 50 4
Lunch
Apr 17 '14 @ 12:59 PM
'' 50 3
'' 233 1
'' 228 1
Snack
Apr 15 '14 @ 6:35 AM
'' 110 1
'' 1,000
1/3
'' 205 1
'' 50 1
'' 53 6
Dinner
Apr 08 '14 @ 8:49 PM

Not a good ve­get­able day.

'' 96 2
'' 10 4
'' 314 2
'' 50 1
'' 50 1
'' 149 1
Dinner
Apr 02 '14 @ 8:53 PM
'' 96 2
'' 50 4
'' 29 6
Dinner
Mar 27 '14 @ 8:37 PM
'' 64 4
'' 90 1
'' 110
1/2
'' 50 4
'' 29 7
'' 149
1/3
Dinner
Mar 26 '14 @ 9:48 PM

Big salad, some chicken.

'' 96 2
'' 311 2
'' 220
25/22
'' 50 4
Dinner
Mar 05 '14 @ 8:30 PM

A big ham­burger salad. I went a little crazy by hav­ing a full avocado, calories-wise. But it was ba­sic­ally a sane mix of protein, vegetables, and fats and I didn’t have any bread (but I did cut up two small tortillas).

'' 322 1
'' 120
2/3
'' 532
1/8
'' 138 1
'' 279 1
'' 50 2
'' 50 1
'' 149 1
Lunch
Mar 04 '14 @ 12:29 PM
'' 90 2
'' 75 2
'' 50 4
'' 160 2
'' 149 1
Dinner
Mar 03 '14 @ 8:03 PM
'' 100 2
'' 96 2
'' 110 1
'' 59 5
'' 50 1
'' 149 1
Dinner
Feb 26 '14 @ 8:00 PM

Salad for dinner.

'' 59 4
'' 75 2
'' 50 2
Dinner
Feb 01 '14 @ 8:44 PM
'' 59 6
'' 98 1
'' 50 1
Dinner
Jan 14 '14 @ 8:00 PM
'' 64 2
'' 90
3/2
'' 50 3
'' 29 6
Dinner
Jan 13 '14 @ 8:04 PM
'' 9 6
'' 64 2
'' 300
4/5
'' 50 2
Dinner
Jan 11 '14 @ 8:30 PM
'' 100
8/5
'' 90 2
'' 320
1/5
'' 220 1
'' 50 2
'' 50 1
'' 149
2/3
Dinner
Jan 07 '14 @ 8:58 PM
'' 55 1
'' 96 2
'' 64 1
'' 80 4
'' 46
1/3
'' 50 2
Lunch
Jan 01 '14 @ 8:37 PM

The fries are ac­tu­ally a potato pan­cake Mo made, very small.

'' 300 1
'' 90
13/10
'' 50 2
Dinner
Dec 25 '13 @ 8:45 PM
'' 358 1
'' 50 2
'' 29 6
Lunch
Dec 24 '13 @ 12:30 PM
'' 90 2
'' 4 2
'' 12 5
'' 50 3
'' 160 2
Dinner
Dec 11 '13 @ 8:00 PM
'' 96 2
'' 64 2
'' 166 2
'' 50 4
'' 110
3/2
Dinner
Dec 08 '13 @ 10:19 PM
'' 64 3
'' 110
1/2
'' 45 1
'' 205 1
'' 50 4
'' 50 1
'' 29 6
'' 149 1
Dinner
Dec 04 '13 @ 9:00 PM
'' 100 1
'' 100 1
'' 31 6
'' 90 2
'' 110
1/5
'' 110
1/5
'' 50 2
'' 50 1
'' 149
1/2
Lunch
Dec 04 '13 @ 12:42 PM
'' 59 3
'' 50 4
'' 100
1/2
Lunch
Dec 01 '13 @ 12:49 PM

Fish and salad.

'' 107 1
'' 45 4
'' 100 1
'' 12 2
'' 50 4
'' 140 2
Dinner
Nov 30 '13 @ 8:46 PM

Mo made a pizza for the kids. I had cer­eal be­fore that as a snack.

'' 320
2/3
'' 350 2
'' 50 3
Dinner
Nov 24 '13 @ 8:31 PM

More vegetables—a big plate of peas and salad, with chick­en and rice.

'' 100 20/10
'' 96 2
'' 64 1
'' 59 5
'' 12 8
'' 205 1
'' 50 4
Lunch
Nov 23 '13 @ 12:41 PM
'' 100
13/5
'' 75 2
'' 110 2
'' 50 3
'' 29 4
Dinner
Nov 19 '13 @ 8:05 PM
'' 100 2
'' 96 3
'' 90 2
'' 50 8
Dinner
Nov 10 '13 @ 8:52 PM

Corn muffin with dinner. Start­ing to up my aware­ness of carbs. They are EVERY­WHERE at ALL TIMES.

'' 64 2
'' 353
2/3
'' 110
1/4
'' 300
2/3
'' 50 1
'' 50 1
'' 29 6
'' 149 1
Lunch
Nov 05 '13 @ 12:18 PM
'' 130 2
'' 470 1
'' 50 1
'' 90 1
Lunch
Nov 03 '13 @ 12:48 PM

Made a big salad for lunch. Put some grilled tur­key on it. Very filling.

'' 75 1
'' 50 4
'' 29 6
'' 110
3/2
Dinner
Oct 26 '13 @ 6:00 PM

Made a nice big salad: Arugula, tomatoes, vinegar, pear.

'' 105 2
'' 80 4
'' 50 1
Dinner
Oct 17 '13 @ 8:58 PM
'' 100 1
'' 64 2
'' 90 2
'' 120 2
'' 50 1
'' 29 7
Dinner
Oct 16 '13 @ 9:01 PM
'' 64 2
'' 90 2
'' 80 1
'' 5 3
'' 50 1
'' 160 2
'' 50 1
'' 149 1
Dinner
Oct 09 '13 @ 6:00 PM
'' 320 1
'' 50 8
Dinner
Oct 06 '13 @ 11:06 PM
'' 64 1
'' 320 1
'' 130
3/2
'' 300 1
'' 18 1
'' 33 8
'' 50 1
'' 64 1
Dinner
Oct 05 '13 @ 8:35 PM

Not as bad on ve­get­ables today. A to­mato and a half, about four cups of arugula. Next week I’m going to try to bring a salad into the of­fice every day.

'' 300 1
'' 205 1
'' 50 2
Lunch
Oct 05 '13 @ 1:33 PM
'' 90 2
'' 75
3/2
'' 50 2
'' 210
7/4
Dinner
Oct 01 '13 @ 8:45 PM
'' 64 4
'' 90 2
'' 102 1
'' 59 4
'' 50 4
Dinner
Sep 29 '13 @ 8:23 PM
'' 96 1
'' 110
1/4
'' 91 1
'' 64 1
'' 300 1
'' 50 1
'' 50 1
'' 149
2/3
Lunch
Sep 29 '13 @ 12:23 PM
'' 20 6
'' 94 1
'' 50 2
'' 450 1
Lunch
Sep 28 '13 @ 1:47 PM
'' 220
3/2
'' 338 1
'' 50 1
Dinner
Sep 16 '13 @ 7:29 PM
'' 96 4
'' 200 1
'' 34 4
'' 147
1/2
'' 50 3
Dinner
Sep 13 '13 @ 8:25 PM

Is­raeli din­ner for Yom Kippur. The extra cal­or­ies are Baba Ghanoush, &c. A large amount of salad and cucumbers.

'' 100 3
'' 64 3
'' 14 2
'' 50 5
'' 169 3
'' 50 1
Dinner
Sep 03 '13 @ 10:58 PM
'' 320
2/3
'' 50 2
'' 220 3
Dinner
Aug 31 '13 @ 6:20 PM

Mo made tur­key bur­ger with dressing.

'' 100 1
'' 100 1
'' 150 1
'' 50 2
Lunch
Aug 30 '13 @ 12:12 PM

Stop­ping in at a place after phys­ic­al therapy. Grabbed a brownie. Tricky be­cause this was a good brownie and if it were the only sweets I ate it would be just fine, but it set me off for the day.

'' 112 3
'' 50 1
'' 560 1
Dinner
Aug 28 '13 @ 2:14 PM
'' 59 6
'' 160
2/3
'' 50 2
Lunch
Aug 22 '13 @ 12:00 PM

Shrimp sand­wich at a place in SF as part of a meeting. Heavy.

'' 100 2
'' 353 1
'' 50 2
'' 28 5
Lunch
Aug 21 '13 @ 12:23 PM

Salad on the plane. Good choice. Bought it beforehand.

'' 75
3/2
'' 50 4
Dinner
Aug 17 '13 @ 6:00 PM
'' 59 6
'' 220 1
'' 20 2
'' 75 2
'' 62 1
'' 94 1
'' 50 1
'' 426 1
Dinner
Aug 16 '13 @ 6:00 PM

Weird food day. Didn’t have more than a small bag of pret­zels until 4PM. Meet­ing after meeting.

'' 64 4
'' 320 1
'' 59 6
'' 50 1
Dinner
Aug 15 '13 @ 8:16 PM

Mo made chick­en soup. I really wanted Kefir. Of all the snacks and booze I wanted it was ac­tu­ally the light­est des­pite hav­ing sugar: 280 cal­or­ies for the pint. So I had it. It was good, actually; in some ways it was the right choice.

'' 120
7/3
'' 50 1
'' 220 2
Lunch
Aug 14 '13 @ 12:12 PM
'' 50 1
'' 50 2
'' 53 2
Dinner
Aug 12 '13 @ 7:00 PM
'' 100 1
'' 96 2
'' 20 10
'' 350 3
'' 50 3
'' 24 4
Dinner
Jul 26 '13 @ 7:53 PM

Braised chick­en with soy sauce.

'' 59 6
'' 54 1
'' 100 2
'' 50 1
'' 149 1
'' 2 12
Lunch
Jul 16 '13 @ 12:31 PM
'' 292 1
'' 205 2
'' 50 1
Dinner
Jul 09 '13 @ 5:34 PM
'' 100 1
'' 500
2/3
'' 59 6
'' 50 2
Dinner
Jul 07 '13 @ 6:17 PM
'' 96 2
'' 64 2
'' 90 1
'' 102 2
'' 59 5
'' 64 2
'' 145 1
'' 50 2
Dinner
Jun 30 '13 @ 12:00 PM
'' 100 2
'' 105 4
'' 50 2
Lunch
Jun 20 '13 @ 1:38 PM
'' 250 1
'' 50 1
'' 70 4
Dinner
Jun 17 '13 @ 8:16 PM
'' 46 1
'' 90 2
'' 230 1
'' 108 3
'' 50 1
Dinner
Jun 07 '13 @ 7:17 PM
'' 39 2
'' 75 2
'' 50 2
'' 130 1
Dinner
May 26 '13 @ 7:37 PM
'' 100 4
'' 279 1
'' 110 1
'' 50 3
Lunch
Apr 24 '13 @ 11:07 PM

Cobb Salad. Was awesome.

'' 50 10
'' 220 1
Lunch
Apr 22 '13 @ 2:47 PM

I over­or­dered at lunch: A piece of bread and a big salad were plenty. No ac­tu­al need for the sandwich. Al­though the pro­tein was nice and I feel good. I’d be hun­gri­er later without it.

No sweets, though, and I rode my bike for 40 minutes to get there and back. More, really.

I spend so much time wor­ry­ing about my health it’s ridiculous.

One day at a time. No need for the sand­wich in the future. That’s what I know.

'' 651
2/3
'' 50 7
'' 390
5/3
'' 0 1
Dinner
Apr 20 '13 @ 8:26 PM
'' 96 2
'' 300 1
'' 50 2
Dinner
Apr 18 '13 @ 8:43 PM
'' 59
9/2
'' 50 2
Lunch
Apr 18 '13 @ 4:44 PM
'' 220 1
'' 210
10/7
'' 50 1
Lunch
Apr 07 '13 @ 2:00 PM
'' 70 3
'' 320
1/3
'' 160 2
'' 50 3
'' 50
1/2
'' 154
1/2
Lunch
Feb 28 '13 @ 3:11 PM

Lunch at a place near Times Square that isn’t too toxic.

'' 210
1/3
'' 115
23/10
'' 50 2
Lunch
Feb 19 '13 @ 12:56 PM

Salad. Weight down. Keep­ing it going. Re­view at work today. Secretly ex­pect­ing to be fired. It would be a kind of relief.

'' 100 2
'' 59 2
'' 140
6/7
'' 108 1
'' 50 3
Lunch
Feb 11 '13 @ 1:47 PM
'' 100 3
'' 235 2
'' 279 1
'' 50 4
Dinner
Feb 10 '13 @ 8:32 PM
'' 110 2
'' 90 1
'' 350 2
'' 50 1
Lunch
Jan 03 '13 @ 1:54 PM
'' 279 1
'' 50 5
'' 90 1
Dinner
Jan 01 '13 @ 8:25 PM
'' 100
9/2
'' 135 4
'' 130 3
'' 105 4
'' 50 1
Dinner
Dec 30 '12 @ 6:43 PM
'' 12 12
'' 39 1
'' 105 3
'' 50 1
Lunch
Dec 18 '12 @ 3:02 PM
'' 90 1
'' 292
1/2
'' 130 1
'' 50 1
'' 16 3
Dinner
Dec 14 '12 @ 7:34 PM
'' 205
2/3
'' 50 1
'' 59 3
Lunch
Nov 27 '12 @ 12:08 PM
'' 300 1
'' 23 5
'' 50 1
Dinner
Nov 19 '12 @ 6:58 PM
'' 59 4
'' 22 3
'' 278
1/2
'' 50 1
Dinner
Nov 16 '12 @ 8:18 PM
'' 4 8
'' 292
2/3
'' 50 1
Dinner
Oct 15 '12 @ 8:14 PM
'' 110
4/3
'' 120 1
'' 205
1/2
'' 50 1
'' 226 4/2
Dinner
Oct 14 '12 @ 5:58 PM
'' 99
5/2
'' 59 5
'' 50 1
Dinner
Oct 13 '12 @ 9:08 PM
'' 90
7/5
'' 73 1
'' 50 1
'' 128 2
Dinner
Oct 10 '12 @ 9:52 PM
'' 110
1/3
'' 314 1
'' 50 1
Dinner
Jul 09 '11 @ 9:01 PM
'' 100
5/2
'' 14 1
'' 35 4
'' 41 2
'' 41 2
'' 160 1
'' 50 2
'' 149
1/4
Lunch
Apr 20 '11 @ 1:19 PM

Eat­ing them feelings.

'' 85 1
'' 108 8
'' 205
1/3
'' 50 1
'' 132 1
'' 70 4
Dinner
Nov 12 '10 @ 9:09 PM
'' 102 1
'' 380 2
'' 50 1
Dinner
Aug 29 '10 @ 8:54 PM

I gave up on life after dinner. [Wife] & I were snapping, exhausted. I went in to rest my eyes, which were puffy, and she came to me with two cu­cum­bers and a washcloth. “Chemically, it re­leases an astrin­gent that draws out the puffogens,” she explained, and I did not dis­pute her. She came back fif­teen minutes later. I had not moved; cu­cum­bers still on eyes. “Do you feel better?” she asked. “I feel,” I said, “like I’m in a real pickle.”

'' 102 1
'' 105
3/2
'' 50 1
Lunch
Aug 24 '10 @ 3:24 PM
'' 110 2
'' 50
5/4
Dinner
Aug 23 '10 @ 9:11 PM
'' 80 10
'' 50
3/2
Dinner
Jul 25 '10 @ 6:21 PM
'' 102 1
'' 90
2/3
'' 50 6
'' 56 6
'' 160 2
'' 50 1
'' 0 1
Dinner
Jan 11 '10 @ 4:50 PM

At a big wed­ding in the Crane­way Pa­vil­ion in Richmond, CA. All sorts of misc. wed­ding treats adjoined.

'' 100 8
'' 200 2
'' 250 3
'' 167 2
'' 50 3
'' 24 24
Dinner
Dec 23 '09 @ 7:12 PM
'' 13 3
'' 353
1/3
'' 59 8
'' 50 3
Lunch
Dec 17 '09 @ 12:52 PM
'' 85 1
'' 50 1
'' 132 1
'' 70 6
Lunch
Nov 06 '09 @ 12:33 PM
'' 85 1
'' 50 1
'' 132 2
Lunch
Oct 25 '09 @ 12:19 PM
'' 102 1
'' 59 6
'' 100 2
'' 20 4
'' 50 1
Lunch
Oct 21 '09 @ 4:29 PM

Connie: “Your four read­ers are tired are tired of hear­ing about your bike rides.”

R—: “And the dazzling glory of the eth­er­e­al morn­ing upon the water.”

'' 90 1
'' 85 1
'' 205
1/2
'' 50 1
'' 22 6
Lunch
Jul 21 '09 @ 3:11 PM

Much guess­ing at lunch. The web is usu­ally forthcoming, but has no an­swers when it comes to tan­doori chick­en and cooked bas­mati rice; nor, I suppose, would the surly men be­hind the counter at the del­icatessen be able to provide me with help­ful cal­or­ie count (and a hug).

Nor do I know how much any­thing weighs— my phone is six ounces, but my hand is so used to it that it’s hard to re­gister it as weight. Lunch, the etern­al puzzle. There were samosas; there were oily sauces; there were de­light­ful eth­nic cook­ies in brightly-colored packages; but I had a kebab of bright or­ange chicken, rice, and no sauce. My as­sess­ment of this lunch is, I think, on the high side (or per­haps on the low side; who knows?), but I doubt it’s off by more than 200 cal­or­ies either way. At this point that is a paltry sum. And it will re­main a mys­tery for the ages.

I am two weeks into my life­style change, or diet, or doomed experiment, or life-affirming change, and it’s re­mark­able how many people find my ass an en­ga­ging topic. I star­ted a list:

  • The “legitimate” weight-loss industry
  • The “utterly corrupt” weight-loss industry
  • The fat ac­cept­ance community
  • People who say shit on the street
  • Weight loss re­search scientists
  • People who hate fat people
  • Most doctors
  • People with advice
  • Bari­at­ric sur­gery advocates
  • Mike Huckabee
  • The phar­ma­ceut­ic­al industry
  • The fit­ness industries
  • Makers of Ras­cal scooters
  • Food distributors
  • Cas­u­al Male Big & Tall
  • Fur­niture makers
  • Farm­ers and food conglomerates
  • Hippies
  • Belt manufacturers
  • Gourmands
  • Makers of de­li­cious treats
  • Mom
  • Dad
  • The New York Times
  • Fer­til­izer firms
  • (And thus) Oil companies
  • The bagel industry

Behold! I am in point of fact not merely a ter­rible fatty. I am a cher­ished and im­port­ant creature; much de­bate is oc­cur­ring in the firm­a­ment as I grind my bones and plow the ground. It feels as if I am of as great an interest, and as oft-discussed, as the Negro of 1960, or the Suf­fra­gette of 1910. Of course I lack the nat­ive dig­nity of their oppression, for my con­di­tion is self-induced, not some ge­net­ic or cul­tur­al ac­ci­dent (or not ).

Everyone wants to know: What is to be done? Star­ing up I see peering, judg­ment­al adults with clip­boards and protest signs, of­fer­ing lap bands and cupcakes, pok­ing me, smiling, frowning. They watch every move. I know ex­actly what I am. I am the new na­tion­al baby.

'' 150
5/2
'' 50 3
'' 75 6